so u really want me to hurt u the way u hurt me....
i havent been on in a while...jsut wanted to say..what up homies!! im back!!
i understand the meaning of this song now!!!
Mr Brightside
I'm coming out of my cage
And I've been doing just fine
Gotta gotta be down
Because I want it all
It started out with a kiss
How did it end up like this
It was only a kiss, it was only a kiss
Now I'm falling asleep
And she's calling a cab
While he's having a smoke
And she's taking a drag
Now they're going to bed
And my stomach is sick
And it's all in my head
But she's touching his-chest
Now, he takes off her dress
Now, letting me go
And I just can't look its killing me
And taking control
Jealousy, turning saints into the sea
Swimming through sick lullabies
Choking on your alibis
But it's just the price I pay
Destiny is calling me
Open up my eager eyes
'Cause I'm Mr Brightside
so yea..i now know that im nothing more than a manwhore to anyone and everyone...this fucking sux...why cant i jsut get a decent girl for once...im not sayin that girls that ive dated or been with werent....its just that all it seems these days are that i get myself into situations where they really bother me for days...i mean i should have had feelings before i do anything and i didnt...and now i feel like shit...cuz shes a sweet girl and i would want to like use her in anyway...but maybe she was using me...i mean chics do that...or maybe im just fucking losing my mind cuz i dont know waht to do...i mean ive been rejected before but never like this...usually im the one doin the rejection like this...but this time im not...idk...maybe iwas doing it cuzi was mad at cara and taht she wouldnt see me...thats prolly what it was...i mean i was so pist off about it that i didnt care...i mean of course i didnt mean for it to end up as far as it did...and of course in not gonna regret what i did...i do regret not going for the one i care about tho...i doubt ill ever see her while im here cuz ive fucked up too much already...shit dood...this is all coming from the heart and i doubt anyone would read it cuz no cares about me anymore...im just wasting away my life....no use in living today when its just gonna be the same shit tomorrow...its always the samething...my life is totally meaningless and i should no longer stay here...who the fuck wants me here....im just taking up useful air for those who will do something great in their lifes me...ill prolly end up a drunk and fucked u dead beat dad just like my father...shit im nothing mre that a mindless fuck and i should end it all now...and then will anyone cry for me...fuck no...i pushed everyone away from me...
shit shit shit ...ive fucked up big time...fucking high school girls...fuck me(as in like im fucked)!!!
so i got one girl mad at me and another who just blows me off...karma is a fucking bitch....all my ct freaks...call me at 464 6084.....
